Do I make you proud?

Perks of being a faculty member in the College of Computer Studies in my Alma Mater, Lyceum of the Philippines University - Batangas, I have this privilege to attend the greatest event every graduating student dream to be in - the Dedication and Recognition Ceremonies. Just this morning started the event with a Thanksgiving Mass, then the main event continous.

As the program gone by, I have witnessed a lot of things I should be proud of and be inspired. The stories of the students that tells us how hard the path they went to get through everything they earned. Some just settled to pass the course, others wished for an award but was given a better blessing. You'll hear stories that can either inspire you, or break you into pieces. The greatness of our program now was we have 5 students who got up to the stage to deliver their valedictory speech. And they would give out a hint of their life during the 3-minute alloted time.

And all of a sudden, it came all through to me one they had played their graduation song, "Do I make you proud?"

A realization I came to think that time while the song ia playing, at the same time all the stories the student shared to us, plus the run of events that happened to me for the past 8 years of my life.

Do I make everyone proud?

My answer? Not really.

I dont know why but it seems everything fall to pieces. Nothing would come out solid of what I am doing. I realized there are a lot of time and effort wasted, opportunities missed, and feelings have been hurt. I don't know what it will be or what might happen. All that I want to do was to make my tears stop falling from my eyes and never make anyone notice I have teary eyes. Everything struck to my heart as if an arrow had pricked in me. Several times. And it was like, here I am, back to zero. Back to everything where I started.

But then, I see these students wave their smiles out as it signals that they have overcome a large obstacled and won over it, I suddenly said to myself, why would I be ashamed of myself? Leaving the grandeur living in the city to live with the people you love and to make memories with the people that make you happy, is the most important decision I made in my life. Though financially it is very very hard to cope, but I am doing it so that I can be a new me.

As I see their eyes smize, no wonder I can overcome my own obstacles. I had done it before like what these students did, why can't I now? I wouldn't be graduated Magna Cum Laude for nothing, right? Hehehe!

Come on, let me just cry it all out to make myself ok. Just for this time.

Again, Congratulations to the Batch 2016 graduates of the College of Computer Studies of my Alma Mater, LPU - Batangas.


Loving can hurt hard, words can bleed, but it is the only thing that makes us feel alive.
Loving can also heal and mend our souls, making everything easier, and it's the only thing we take with us when we die.
We keep this love in this photograph called life, making these memories for ourselves, where our eyes are never closing, hearts are never broken, and time's forever frozen still.
-based on Ed Sheeran's song, "Photograph"

I thank everyone who become a part of my past 28 years. I know it is tough, tough sometimes. I may be hurt, have hurt othersBut I assure you, it has a lot of happiness as well.

As I start my 29th year here in Mother Earth, I will relive what is my favorite saying, "Simple is the best." I left the grandiose life of Manila in the hopes I can do differently without the complications. I am aware it will not be easy, but I am confident I can do it.

I am back home, home not only where my family is, but where my heart should be. I hope I can make my plans happen. I am starting anew. I am confident enough that the great One above will continue to guide me with everything I do. I know He won't let me down.

I am looking forward for the challenges this new year have for me. Like what Ed Sheeran showed in his music video above, behind all the fame and fortunes he achieved right now, he is still that little Ed Sheeran loved and being loved by his family.

Thank you y'all! Looking forward being with you in my new life at 29.


How many have you loved?

Why waste his life not loving.

When I woke up this morning, I decided to search and watch all the videos I have saved in my files for the past years. I enjoyed listening (and watching) those music videos. But when I saw its name, I played it and there it goes. This video had inspired me many times, and it never failed me to be inspired more. Honestly, I cried many times on this video, realizing that there are so many things you will be wasting if you never love. I’m not a dumb person or someone who don’t have any feelings whatsoever. Love is why we live. It gives your life color and meaning. It would give you peace of mind knowing that somehow, someone is caring for you, will protect you, and will be with you always. Happiness it is. I hope everyone in this world would love.

Let me quote some of the things I love about this video. Worth to be shared.

“…Death was not what saddened her the most. But the fact that she never really felt like she had fallen in love. She weren’t get the half of those emotions—good and bad—of being hurt and of being held…

…Teaching me to see that one of the greatest gifts we have of being alive is the ability to give, receive, and even lose love. There are so many like her whose lives end before having any of these experiences. What a waste if we don’t strive to love in our lives. She made me understand why. Why waste his life not loving.”

How would you describe the one you love?

The guy described the girl he love as all those girls he loved before combined into one. He’s been very honest to confess his feelings on each girls he loved before. But what I love about it was how he relate each characteristics of those girls to her—as his sixth, not one of them, but all of them. Let me quote him:

“You are WHO I love—the one in the pedestal, the fantasy, the make-believe things that are actually true.”

“You are WHAT I love—the depth, the inside jokes, the bestfriend…”

“You are WHEN I love—a new history is being started with you. We are the young lovers our older selves will someday reminisce about.”

“You are WHERE I love—because I go anywhere just to be with you.”

“You are WHY I love—because before you I didn’t truly understand what I was looking for. And now that we found each other, you’ve given my past and future meaning.”

What have I realized about myself?

Loving should be unconditional. That is should be. This is also reflected in the animated movie “Up” where even death hadn’t been the lead character’s reason to not grant his wife’s dream, with the help of a boy scout. Let me quote a Bible verse about love, which was also featured in the Destiny’s Child album, Independent Women.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (NIV)

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Here is the video I am telling you. From WongFu Productions. The Last.

The Last–WongFu Productions. © WongFu Productions

Thank you... I am sorry... I am hoping...

The year 2012 is almost over. A few more hours until 2013. I got a lot of things in mind that I want to say before I regret not saying it. I think this is the right time for it. Later I'll be in the office working, taking in calls, while everyone will celebrate the New Year. I may not that verbal enough to say what my mind wishes to. But let me say it through here.

Thank you... 

First and foremost, I thank God for everything He had given me this year. All the blessings He gave me. Some of it which I don't deserve, but still He gave it to show how much He appreciates and loves me as I am. No things can be compared to His love. I love you Lord. I also thank God for the challenges He gave me. Without it, I won't be the person I become now. He is really a good Teacher and Provider. I sing my praise to You.

I thank all the people who become a part of my 2012. Those people who have shared the happiness, sorrows, ups and downs, wisdom, and skill I endured this year.

Thank you to the WorkforceSolutions Inc family. It has been a great time being with you all. I had learned a lot from all of you. This blog is not enough to mention all those things I treasure. There may be some times that I am not that approachable, but I make it to the point that I reach out back to you through food. Hehehe! I will never forget all of you there. Thank you so much!

The Capones and Gagante Family, who have been my family here in Manila, never in any time failed to show their love and care for me in every way I go and do. I may not have been with you in your reunion last May 2012 in Eastern Samar, but it has also been a great opportunity for me to meet my Sykes family (hey, you got it right!). I thank you so much.

My Sykes family. I didn't regret that I wasn't able to be with the Capones and Gagante reunion, because I had a great time with Sykes. In a short span of time they have showed me that nothing can replace the happy environment I have in Sykes. The batch I was with, Wave Xenia, including the trainers and mentors we have, was the best class I've been with. Those people had contributed a lot to what I have become now. Thank God I met them. I thank all of you because this year has been so fruitful and so exciting. And I will never ever forget you.

Team Falcons are also included in my Sykes family. They have been my guru, friend, and family all-in-one. They never failed to educate me and hone my skills in my line of work. I am happy that I become a part of the team of the best agents. I may have irregularities in some point, but they never make me feel that I am different. That's what I like best about them. I really thank you much.

To my room mates and neighbors here in my place, I thank you. I won't forget the companionship and the things we share, especially with food (hehehe!). I am thankful because I got you people who really care on me whatever life brings on me. You have been the witness of what I've gone through this year, and you never left me. That's what I like about you. Hope we could still be together next year, however due to some circumstances, we all need to go in separate ways soon (you all know why). Again, thank you!

My friends here in Manila, thank you. You have known who I am for more than 2 years already, and I am thankful because you accepted me for who I am. That is more than enough for me. I am blessed to have you as my friends.

My know how much we have gone through in life. I thank you because you have been with me for a long time now and still you are here sharing every bit of it. Thank you is not enough how much I appreciate all of it. You know how much, and it will never end, the love I have for you. No amendments would ever change it. Hope you feel the same. Thank you so much.

Of course, will I ever forget my new family? My TeleTech family. Wave 88. I know it has been a very rough road for us this past two months, and a lot from us had separated their ways from us, but I hope the rest of us will still hold on. Even if we are going to be in different teams, I am wishing that we still stay together and occupy in the same bays. I think it won't hurt the management if we decided to stay together like we are one team. Hope all of you stay the same. Thank you for the company. You are the reason I am enjoying my stay in TeleTech.

My friends and followers in Google+, Facebook, Twitter. It is fun to be with you in the virtual world - sharing some thoughts and insights to every thing, big and small. We had shared our hi's and hellos, greetings in almost every time of the day, and the things we know we have common with. I somehow managed to meet some of you, but I am hoping we could have some time also together. :)  

I am sorry... 

I hope PGMA won't mind if I used this one. I am sincere enough to say it, though. I know and I admit that I have shortcomings and sinned to some people, especially to those people that are close to me and to my heart; including God. It really hurts and somehow I thought to myself why I had been this bad. I won't blame some of them if they got angry or sullen or disappointed on me. I hope I could make up with them soon. And I hope Lord that You and those people would find forgiveness for my shortcomings.

My choir mates in San Jose, Batangas. San Jose Voice Choir and JMY Youth Choir. This is the Nth Christmas and New Year that I haven't spend my time singing praises and Christmas Carols with you since I left to pursue my career here. It really is heartbreaking for me, especially when I attend the mass here in St. Peter Parish, and the choir would sing the songs we sang there in San Jose. It brings all the days we spent together, in joys and cries. Those days since my college years. All my firsts are with you guys. I am very sorry guys. I hope I could make up with you. Nevertheless, I am always including you in my prayers, and you all stay here in my heart no matter what. I am hoping someday all of you still accept me if I decided to come back. I hope that day won't be too late for me.

My former PKI work mates. I really do appreciate the things you shared with me. All of you are good friends indeed, no doubts about that. You have been very good to me. You even helped me find a job, even offered one, when I am finding one. But I declined. I had already found my fulfillment in programming already. My frustrations about computers that started when I was in high school has been answered. Behind all of it, I am thanking you all because you are still there despite my attitude. I hope we see each other again soon. I hope our grand reunion in the Cathedral of Taal is still in effect. I will be there...but the wheels part, I am still working on it. Again, I am sorry and I thank you.

Ms Jone, sorry if I wasn't able to meet you last November. It has been a long time since we got our little talk in a Starbucks shop way back when I am in Sony Life. I really missed that so much. But due to work I wasn't able to do that. I hope you would understand. I hope you will stay as my friend as the year 2013 replaces the 2012. Miss you much!

To my family. Mama, Papa, and to my siblings. This is the first Christmas and New Year that I won't be with you. I already explained that I got work during those days. But behind those things, I am really sorry for my shortcomings. Sorry for being not a good son to you Mama and Papa, and a brother to my siblings. I know that this is unforgivable. I know this is not the right time to think about my self because I should have been thinking about your welfare. But I found myself looking for something. It is hard to explain. You were right Mama, that I am not getting any younger anymore. And I should think for my future. I am also thinking about that. Taking all things into consideration. I hope you would understand Ma, I hope you can give this shot to me - To think for my self, doing everything in my own way and in my terms, with God's guidance. But do not worry Ma, Pa. This is not only for me, but for all of you as well. I love you Ma, Pa. I really do. Even I am not that verbal about it and affectionate. I really do love you. I am always thinking all of you. On the other hand, I am thanking you all because you are the proof that family will always be there no matter what. I am always praying for our welfare. Thank you po.

I am hoping... 

I am not going to promise something for the coming New Year that I couldn't fulfill. But will assure that this coming New Year will be fruitful and exciting and full of colors. Also it would include making up with the things I haven't done this 2012. 360 days will still be short, though. But who cares, everything has time, and right timing will make everything comes to their places. 2012 had not been the end of time for humankind (thank God!) so it means we are in our 2nd life already.

I am still praying and hoping for world peace, and love in mankind. I am not losing my hold on it. There is still hope. If there is will be hope, everyone will care. And if everyone cares, love will reign. If love reigns, peace will reside in our hearts. Peace brings all happiness and contentment to every man in this world. Then every person will be smiling away the bad vibes. Isn't cool?

2012 is been a record-breaking year for me. Hoping 2013 will exceed to that.

Happy and Prosperous New Year everyone!!!

Finding ways to be Happy

This new commercial from Coca-Cola tells us that whatever circumstances we encounter in our lives, whether through good times and hard times, sufferings, conflicts, confusions, and the like, there will be ways we could find happiness and joy that we could share for everyone.

This video, even though it is sang in Filipino, will give us instances that us can bring joy more than sorrows.

Here is the lyrics for our Filipino friends. Enjoy!

Ako ang magdadala saan man mapunta
Dadalhin ang ligaya
Ako ang magbubukas hindi maghihintay
Bubuksan ang ligaya
Kung saan man masaya
Doon lagi ako magpupunta
Hinding hindi makikinig
Pag sinasabing hindi kaya
Papakita ko lahat kaya
Ako ang gumagawa
Lahat ng makita gagawing maligaya
Ako ang magbibigay
Halina't sumama na
Magbigay ng ligaya
Dadalhin ko,  bubuksan ko ang saya ng mundo
Gagawin ko ibibigay ko
Tuloy-tuloy na tayo
Dadalhin ko,  bubuksan ko ang saya ng mundo
Gagawin ko ibibigay ko
Tuloy-tuloy na tayo
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Just be happy

To all my friends who are going through some issues right now (including me), let's start an intention avalanche. We all need positive intentions right now. If I don't see your name, I'll understand. May I ask my friends wherever you might be, to kindly copy, paste, and share this status for one hour to give a moment of support to all those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, worries of any kind and just need to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of all my friends just for moral support. I know some will!! I did it for a friend and you can too. You have to copy & paste this one, no share button.

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Love on Top - Beyonce

Another performance level music video from Beyonce that shows the vocal prowess of the singer. I just remember the times I have with my choirmates when we try to kill the time we usually sing songs, then to add a challenge, we transpose the tune a level higher than the original. We transpose the song until we can't handle the song's pitch anymore. Miss that. :-)

Hope you enjoy the video.

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Be vigilant in our online accounts

This is the reason why we need to be vigilant with our online accounts. This is very true if you also do purchases online. Good thing I have my 2.step google verification activated, and no credit cards yet. BPO agents and employees, take note.
Read this article to see why. The story is kinda creepy. But I hope this will enlighten you about the importance of online security and selecting online companies to work with.
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